Well guys, I have given my commentary/opinion a great deal of thought the last 2 days. I have decided to give my telescopes to the physics & astronomy dept. at the local university. I am going to remain focused on what I like doing best. And that would be focusing on the history of astronomy…. the people behind the discoveries, the geology of the solar system and so on. I know now, that without any doubt than continuing to try an master the use of a telescope, EQ or Alt-Az would continue to frustrate and eventually destroy any joy I experience with astronomy.
As for spending time outside under the stars, I have binoculars 25×100, and a tripod to hold them. And so I will wander randomly without needing to know what I am seeing. Rather I will focus on enjoying the absolute magnificence of the view.
Thank you for your opinions and ideas, but the reality of it for me is to understand that telescope operation has always ended badly for me, and it will not change; so I have to change my priorities and my reality.